I remember her those days.

I have known her since the beginning.
But, I have never seen her like this.

In those days

I remember her sunken, quiescent face,
I remember her those suffocating pain . In the corner of the room, under the blanket, she tried to hide herself, from the whole world.
I remember , when her heart broke as a inexpensive glass sets, she could not stop her tears, she could not be shown to anyone those tears ,se couldn’t stand up at all,she thought there was no way out of this situation.

I remember her severe breakdowns ,
The girl who read so much, she could not concentrate on her studies. She broke down day by day, wholly, the panic attacks , which were draining her whole being. She could not eat, she could not sleep at night, even she could not speak, she had forgotten to even smile, she was struggling to breathe, the sleeping pills weren’t working, her body was shaking with fear and panic.
When she thought, she can’t survive this situation, when she thought she couldn’t win ,When she thought, she would never be able to live like she used to, she thought ,she will never be able to find repletion again.

I remember the moment when she thought she had no reason to live.



I also remember those who caused her to be in this condition, those who stood by her in this situation, those who ridiculed her.

I remember , I do remember all and all of them .


I have promised her to never forget and to remind her from time to time , that against all that , she smiled again , she started to spend her life again in this beautiful earth , she live , she live in love , she survived … . yess!!
I survived .

For this blog , I was inspired by Yasmine Lasheen’s ‘ Glow of the Heart’ s fb post.

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Stay Safe

Be Happy

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