I’ve experienced a worst year; sometimes I think not to label a whole year as the worst.
But what could you say when you suffered a lot, you cried a lot, and the anxieties and sleepless nights are more memorable than the happy moments?
The year was strange, freaky, and mad to me. I don’t know why they showed that much cruelty to me. I just considered 2024 as the worst, but then in 2025, whenever July entered, it proved me fully wrong.
The first two to three months were excellent, I have to say. I went to Hyderabad alone and came back alone too, which was a little achievement for me, because before that there was always a scary girl inside me who was ranting and crying over everything. Whose parents picked her up to university too, huh lol!
But this time I did something.

I spent two months there, did all my own things like clothes, pots, cooking for people, everything. Met some awesome blossom people. The idiot introvert girl who didn’t want to talk that much with strangers ,

she talked and spent days after days.
The 13-year-old little chuti may see this trait of mine and laugh out loud thinking about how far I’ve come. I always liked always asking for this trait.
Anyways, after those best months I came to my home. There was an exam, so I studied as hard as I could, but somehow I was not satisfied with my concentration level. There were some personal distractions, of course.
I didn’t crack the exam this time again.
And so, the world fell down.
Whatever I planned, everything started going the wrong route. I can’t count how many days I didn’t sleep.
September–October came; people came home, Pujo came, I went on a trip with friends. I laughed a little.
But again, the phase kept shouting at me about existence, and that’s how I spent the whole year.
Still don’t know where to go… still lost, but there are some people who are continuously showing me a deep yellow torchlight to find my way.
I took the best decision this year,to leave social media. I felt peace not knowing anything about anyone.
The strange world asked me the question, “Why?”
The answer was so simple: I was just fed up with the fakism of social media.
Today I installed it; the famous media, Instagram.
But suddenly it gave me guilt for having all those things again and poked me to uninstall it.
Too strangely, I felt uncomfortable using the app. Somehow the unhappiness was pinching me for using it.
And this feeling actually gave me relief.

I entered 2026 with all hope, with much positivity.

Life is a winter’s day; the sunlight will come over, even if it takes days after days.

May you all start your year with prosperity and warm love.

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Stay safe

Be Happy

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